brain: here's a good memory with someone who ended up really hurting you
me: why did you bring me this
brain: just because
brain: here's a good memory with someone who ended up really hurting you
me: why did you bring me this
brain: just because
anxiety: everything ur doing is wrong and everyone who sees you instantly dislikes you
me, a reasonable human being: thats ridiculous and doesnt make any sense and i know this is my anxiety talking
me: and yet
me waking up: i can't wait to go to sleep tonight
Doris: Liegst du schon den ganzen Tag im Bett?
Lena : Nein ich war schon am Kühlschrank
brain: instead of going to bed now, lets stay up another 5 hours doing nothing productive.
me: why
brain: you gotta
Me in 5th grade: I will never smoke or drink or do any drugs ever
Me now: I probably wouldn't do meth
Weißt du, wenn du Depressionen hast, dann braucht es keinen Grund das alles scheiße ist.
Dear Drug Dealer.
Thank you for risking your ass so I can get high
someone: how are you!!!!
me: dead inside but what's new
Spongebob: What are you doing when I'm gone?
Patrick: waiting for you to come back.
Ich: Das ist als würde ich einen komplett anderen Menschen treffen
Ich: Einen, mit dem ich nichts anzufangen weiß.
The world is a terrible place and I don't want to be part of it anymore
Depression: Du bist hässlich.
Depression: Niemand wird dich je lieben können.
Depression: Du darfst nicht essen, du bist fett.
Depression: Du bist an allem Schuld.
Depression: Niemand erträgt es bei dir weil du so schrecklich bist.
Depression: Bohr dir die Klinge in den Arm, du verdienst es.
Depression: Geh sterben.
Ich: Okay.
me: hey sorry i cant make it tomorrow!
person: aw whats wrong?
me: i don't wanna come
someone: do you watch this t.v. show?
me: no, but i've seen gifs
Person: how are you?
Me: im ok
Person: why just ok?
Message appears: you are not an experienced enough friend to unlock this response yet. try again after reaching friendship level 10.
people: why aren't you doing the thing
me: because the thing makes me anxious and i physically cannot do it
people: lol excuses
A: Du solltest schlafen.
B: Ja mit dir.
what i say: i'm bored
what i mean: none of my usual hobbies are stimulating enough for me anymore because i am dead inside and i am desperately craving human interaction in a vain attempt to keep myself from slipping into the abyss of insanity
Anxiety: "Why are you talking?"
Anxiety: "No one wants to hear what you have to say."
Anxiety: "You're making things weird, shut up!"
Me: "But I'm in the middle of a sentence......."
Anxiety: "Just stop talking. No one will notice."
Me: -Stops talking-
Everyone: -Doesn't notice-
Anxiety: "See?"
Me: "Okay."
Anxiety: "Nothing you say matters."
Me: "Okay."