what the fuck is wrong withm e i am so trired i hate this i want to die i want to be dedad i want to kill myself i dont want to lvie anymire i want to HUTTRT myself  iwant to go awy. i dont want to ever exist again i want to not ecist im so tired. everything is too heavy and i am so pathetic i want o ill myself i actually want ot kill mysel becuae im a weak piece of shit. pathetic piece of shit. disgusting piece of shit. selfish and weak and pathetic and löslöc..l,dfmkc,x.,cöfijkfv,c.xz.,lkmscjvnkbjlkfmsd,x. please let me die