@queerforthefood
Queerforthefood

The name is Casey. I live in Nevada. Gay. Christian. I look forward to the day that that's not an issue. Feel free to ask me anything.

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2020-09-22 05:34:58

    Turnin' up emotional faders

    Keep repeating self-hating phrases

    I have heard enough of these voices

    Almost like I have no choice

    This is biological stasis

    My mood's shifting to manic places

    Wish I laughed and kept the good friendships

    Watch life, here I go again

    I can't see me cry

    Can't see me cry ever again

    I can't see me cry

    Can't see me cry, this is the end

    My biggest enemy is me

    This can't be real, is it fiction?

    Somethin' feels broke, need to fix it

    I cry out for help, do they listen?

    I'ma be alone until it's finished

    This is the part where I tell you I'm fine, but I'm lying

    I just don't want you to worry

    This is the part where I take all my feelings and hide 'em

    'Cause I don't want nobody to hurt me

    So I never really knew you

    God I really tried to

    Blindsided, addicted

    Felt we could really do this

    But really I was foolish

    Hindsight it's

    Obvious

    They say it's better to have loved and lost

    Than never to have loved at all

    That could be a load of shit

    But I just need to tell you all

    I wake up every morning and I miss so much.

    Their voice. Their laugh. Their smile.

    The way they made me feel safe in their arms and somehow knew exactly how to take away all of my worry.

    All I can do is hope they are well.

    Why was this song written to perfectly fuck me up?

    (Don't stop, baby, you can go on through

    (Don't want, baby, think about you)

    (You know that I'm never gonna lose)

    Road shimmer

    Wiggling the vision

    Heat heat waves

    I'm swimming in a mirror

    Road shimmer

    Wiggling the vision

    Heat heat waves

    I'm swimming in a

    Sometimes, all I think about is you

    Late nights in the middle of June

    Heat waves been faking me out

    Can't make you happier now

    Sometimes, all I think about is you

    Late nights in the middle of June

    Heat waves been faking me out

    Can't make you happier now

    Usually I put

    Something on TV

    So we never think

    About you and me

    But today I see

    Our reflections

    Clearly in Hollywood

    Laying on the screen

    You just need a better life than this

    You need something I can never give

    Fake water all across the road

    It's gone now the night has come but

    Sometimes, all I think about is you

    Late nights in the middle of June

    Heat waves been faking me out

    Can't make you happier now

    You can't fight it

    You can't breathe

    You say something so loving but

    Now I've got to let you go

    You'll be better off in someone new

    I don't wanna be alone

    You know it hurts me too

    You look so broken when you cry

    One more and then I'll say goodbye

    Sometimes, all I think about is you

    Late nights in the middle of June

    Heat waves been faking me out

    Can't make you happier now

    Sometimes, all I think about is you

    Late nights in the middle of June

    Heat waves been faking me out

    Can't make you happier now

    I just wonder what you're dreaming of

    When you sleep and smile so comfortable

    I just wish that I could give you that

    That look that's perfectly unsad

    Sometimes, all I think about is you

    Late nights in the middle of June

    Heat waves been faking me out

    Heat waves been faking me out

    Sometimes, all I think about is you

    Late nights in the middle of June

    Heat waves been faking me out

    Can't make you happier now

    Sometimes, all I think about is you

    Late nights in the middle of June

    Heat waves been faking me out

    Can't make you happier now

    Road shimmer

    Wiggling the vision

    Heat heat waves

    I'm swimming in a mirror

    Road shimmer

    Wiggling the vision

    Heat heat waves

    I'm swimming in a mirror

    I slipped up.

    I read.

    Now im stuck in my bed and tears full my face.

    10x worse than before.

    I wish i didn't know.

    Things are better if I stay

    So long and goodnight

    I dont want this chapter to close

    I dont wanna be your friend.

    And this hurts 10x worse

    I never mean to hurt you.

    I only want good things for you.

    I still love you more than anything in this world....

    That's why i have to be like this. Because you're gone.

    I want you back but you're gone.

    I want you to call but you're gone.

    I want to hold you and hear you're voice but you're gone.

    And I have to try to accept it every day.

    And I die a little more every day.

    And take care of myself.

    Because the only other person who took care of me was you

    And youre gone.

    I don't know why this has happened, but I probably deserve it

    I tried to do my best, but you know that I'm not perfect

    I been praying for forgiveness, you've been praying for my health

    When I leave this earth, hopin' you'll find someone else

    'Cause yeah, we still young, there's so much we haven't done

    Getting married, start a family, watch your husband with his son

    I wish it could be me, but I won't make it out this bed

    I hope I go to heaven so I see you once again

    My life was kinda short, but I got so many blessings

    Happy you were mine, it sucks that it's all ending

    Its been some time and some things have changed.

    I dont cry myself to sleep every night.

    I cried today though.

    I dont look at my phone every time it buzzes hoping its you.

    I dont go to your pages. I don't follow you at all. As much as its nice to see you smiling it kills me to see you at all.

    I still miss how soft your skin is, I miss waking up in your apartment.

    I dont do spiteful things anymore. I don't do things that are bad for me.

    I dont think ill be ready again for a long time.