there is more to life than what you are experiencing right now. i know mental illness and trauma can feel overwhelming and like that's all that there is, but there is more. there's nights spent watching awful movies and eating pizza with your best friends. there's baking cookies while it rains. there's hugging your mom. there's sunsets, new foods, new places, clean sheets, hot summer afternoons and cool winter mornings, fresh berries and soft muffins, friendly cats on the street. there is so much beauty out there. you'll find it soon, i promise. you'll feel warm again.
anyway, I could have loved you endlessly.