@boosterthisgold
unknowing victims of the stars
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2022-11-02 11:55:35
    boosterthisgold

    Hello, friends! It is Sova, and I have some not happy news. I'm very sorry about!

    Our host is no longer host, it is me now! You won't be seeing her a lot anymore. She is not allowed to front for a while due to some issues.

    If you have a questions, feel free to ask me if i can help, friends!!

    Im sorry about this, if u see us online it will probably be me from now on. Thank you. =]

    bitchufo

    Stay safe, Sova.

    boosterthisgold

    Thank you, friend. Your request is safe with me.

    Hello, friends! It is Sova, and I have some not happy news. I'm very sorry about!

    Our host is no longer host, it is me now! You won't be seeing her a lot anymore. She is not allowed to front for a while due to some issues.

    If you have a questions, feel free to ask me if i can help, friends!!

    Im sorry about this, if u see us online it will probably be me from now on. Thank you. =]

    I hate hate hate switching I hate it i hate it so much I hate coming back to answer awkward questions of things I didn't do i hate the "you were online why did you ignore me" conversation I hate missing days I hate missing interactions i hate the fact my loved ones feel betrayed and abandoned by me I hate the thought they miss me i hate how I don't even realize I've been gone i hate how I can't excuse leaving cause it makes me sound manipulative I hate leaving my friends i hate how they all probably resent me for how i dissapear I hate how my co host is an introjrct of my current comfort source and I can't enjoy it without thinking of the trauma and building some resentment for him even though he is genuinely a great guy i hate hurting people i hate being a bad person i hate not being able to be in the right i hate not being able to be a justice bringer I hate how my younger friends don't listen to me when I've been where they are and my advice can easily change their suffering i hate seeing the same exact experiences I've had and learning from them only to not be able to help others learn too i hate how none of the kind words people say about me are true i hate how i know everyone secretly wishes they havent met me because I'm never there i hate how i leave people without meaning to i hate how tired I am always so even if we were switching id still not have any energy for more than simple interactions i hate how im missing possibly my mothers final days i hate how i have no memory of head space i hate how my therapist insists she thinks I'm a system but also wants me to forve everyone to stop seeing me thay way and for me to stop identifying that way I hate how she is forcing us to integrate i hate feeling like 1000 different ppl at once because of integration i hate not knowing what is real and what is source i hate not having a stable identity i hate my loved ones not feeling loved by me

    I hate it. I hate switching. I hate chronic fatigue. I hate BPD. I hate my eating disorder. I hate my addiction. I hate how fucking unreliable and inconsistent I am even thought I try so hard. I hate how ill never be the good person that is selfless and brings justice they see. I hate myself. But I am the best person to exist and only I am capable of carrying a burden like this. That is why God has plastered it onto me to be the anti-christ because no other human could carry all the hatred I have. I am the devils daughter and I should be burnt for that.

    boosterthisgold

    Sometimes i forget my bf thinks of himself as a cis man bc i call this guy my wife use she/her for him sometimes he says he is both genders (jokingly but .... is it rll) he calls me his husband makes women jokes about himself ect ect but rvetitme I mention it he says he is cis... ok wifey take ur time ig🤨🤨

    bitchufo

    At this point I am having a gender crisis about *your* gender.

    boosterthisgold

    THIS IS WHAT WE CALL SOLIDARITY LISTEN AND LEARN PPL