me, crying because i hate my body wHILE BINGING

01 // pansexual // hufflepuff // enfp // she/her
me, crying because i hate my body wHILE BINGING
Stays flirting with Chan and him totally loving it
Owl house characterโs as john mulaney quotes....welp
Eda:
Lilith:
King:
Hooty:
Luz:
Amity:
Emira and Edric:
Gus:
Willow:
I didnโt know Mr. T pityed foolโs that werenโt woke, but thatโs awesome. #respect
โI think about my father being called โboyโ, my uncle being called โboyโ, my brother, coming back from Vietnam and being called โboyโ. So I questioned myself: โWhat does a black man have to do before heโs given the respect as a man?โ So when I was 18 years old, when I was old enough to fight and die for my country, old enough to drink, old enough to vote, I said I was old enough to be called a man. I self-ordained myself Mr. T so the first word out of everybodyโs mouth is โMr.โ Thatโs a sign of respect that my father didnโt get, that my brother didnโt get, that my mother didnโt get.โ
-Mr. T on the subject of his name
I had no idea he put this much thought into this wow
I wonder why we dont hear about thisโฆ
Mr. Tโs raw power vaporizing the guy in the last gif
iโm not actually sorry but i feel like i should still apologize for this preemptively
My feelings about Hooty did a 180
head is flat but ass is fat
181012 nct night night ๐
just went through some old requests in my archive. have we ever been ok?
me, looking back on it all:
My friend just the told me my kpop boys don't love me.
Wait until I tell chan, jaemin, wonho, s.coups, hongjoong, and namjoon
mark lee the bi icon u r today
this took too long to make lol
Me: I'm deleting social media, the constant influx of bad news, bitchy comments and cruel political satire is having a negative effect of my mental health. I just can't deal with any more on Covid-19.
Also me: Now over to that hellsite where I use strangers on the internet to help convince me I should starve myself until I pass out.
most men are just some guy
This is so real, honestly Iโm just trying to make it to play Kingdom Hearts III
Years ago when my PTSD/depression was really bad I always made sure I had some kind of cookie dough or cookie dough mix in the house. And then if it escalated and I got the impulse to kill myself, Iโd start baking cookies instead. And then I couldnโt do it because the cookies were baking. And once the whole process of preparing the dough, preheating the oven, baking the cookies, and letting them cool was over usually at least half and hour had passed and my meds had kicked in and Iโd be likeย โwell I guess I have to live now because I have freshly baked delicious cookies.โ And then Iโd just snack on suicide cookies a little bit at a time for the rest of the week and weirdly enough it helped.
This is brilliant. I need to do this. I love baking so much. Itโs one of my favorite hobbies. I should make a fuckton of cookie dough and freeze it. I also need a recipe for perfect freezable โsuicide cookiesโ because thatโs just the perfect dark millennial humor that tickles me.
Iโm glad you like this idea because I always want to tell people about the concept ofย โsuicide cookiesโ (or really any kind of physical self harm cookies) but not everyone has my fucked up sense of humor and I worry about offending people by accident.
College me was like this with cupcakes. Iโd bake cupcakes. All the cupcakes. Iโd have so many cupcakes Iโd be giving them away, and it was always lovely to see how happy people were when I have them cupcakes, because something nice came out of some of my darkest moments.ย
This is another rare form of โprocrastibakingโ and I appreciate it
This is honestly me with kpop. I once read somewhere that if you're contemplating suicide, try to wait a day/week/month/whatever, because it's ultimately the rest of your life, so why should waiting a week make a difference? And by the time that week is over, you may feel different. So whenever I had strong suicidal thoughts, I'd convince myself to wait until my favorite group had a comeback.
One of the most valuable things I've learned in life is that any reason is a good reason to live, no matter how small or insignificant it may seem.