well so far suppressing it has just made me miserable 

I do. I would regret leaving him for a reason like this, and I care about him. But, this issue has only gotten worse and worse and I’m worried it won’t go away.

Tumblr what do I do?!

he knows, but usually doesn’t have the time/energy...or doesn’t want the responsibility for how much I need. 

they turn me on so much it hurts. it’s a physical ache. some days I cum without even touching myself. 

I struggle to even put it to words. About kinky sex, being put through trials of pain, being tied up and restrained for extended periods of time...but especially being dominated mentally, by a man’s commanding depth of presence. I miss the feeling of fear mixed with arousal. There are days where all I can think of are these things, days when I feel like my purpose is to submit. I don’t know what to do with those feelings. 

I do, but it’s not at all like the things I post on here...

😎 I can’t believe anyone even pays attention to me on here anymore lol

i’ve been posting a little more regularly lately, but you’ll likely never see more than a couple of posts a day from me. I work and go to uni...and looking at too much of this stuff makes it hard to be disciplined. everything in moderation ;)