“I lost my motivation to do things that I enjoyed. I’ve lost my sense of humor about things that I found funny. I even lost people who were important to me. Why is everything taken from me.”

— The Poetic Boy

i’m completely unlovable 🥰💖 it’s so easy to replace me because i’m not remarkable in any way and no one will ever regard me as important ❤️😍 i’m always the last choice 😽✨ i will always be left behind for better people and everyone will always get tired of me and leave me 🌈🌟

I deserve hate, you should hate me. I deserve pain, you should hurt me. I deserve no kindness, you should take advantage of me and throw me away. I am disgusting trash, please give me what I deserve, please make me suffer.

Do y’all ever feel like a demon for being such a burden on your loved ones? Like how your issues might be affecting them adversely and there’s nothing you can do about it. You just feel so helpless because you’re aware you’re this huge burden and just make everything worse

‘Depression is being colourblind and constantly told how colourful the world is’

-Atticus

Death seems like the only option. The solution for every problem I have. I dont need to fight anymore. No more searching for words to describe my pain while nobody is listening in the first place. But something. Make me feel alive enough to breathe a little longer. But I don't want to. I want to die. This pain is neverending

I’m so fucking alone and I don’t know how to deal with it anymore. I feel so suffocated by myself

I could’ve made you happy, I could’ve made you so goddamn happy. But you left, closed the door on what we could’ve been, and dragged me through the trails of your departure. And it’s half my fault because I thought having you in my life in this way was better than not at all. It’s true, being your friend is equally as joyful as it is maddening because I’ll always want more than what you are willing to give. This is okay, you planned your future without me in it. It took me this long to realize that I don’t have a place in your life. So, today I can exhale and begin the process of letting you go. Today I can move forward.

easier said than done // wordsbymp

"It feels like I'm not doing anything with my life, it feels like everything I do is just a waste, Like I'm just a waste of space, Like I'm just wasting everyone's time and energy BUT IM NOT! IM TRYING SOOO FUCKING HARD!! IM TRYING MY FUCKING BEST!!! But yet everything I do feels like nothing"

~SuicidalTeenageNightmares

One of the worst feelings is having all the time you need to do whatever you want but instead, you're laying in your bed doing nothing without the ability to change it because somehow life doesn't feel real. It just passes by, leaving you behind so you don't know what to do with your own god damn life.

You know you’re fucking alone when you’re lying in bed listening to sad music and need someone to admit to just how much you want to end it all - and realize there’s no one.

lets get drunk and talk about how we really feel about each other

I can’t make you love me, but every night I hope you will.

“I am both happy and sad at the same time, and I’m still trying to figure out how that could be.”

— Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower
(via amargedom)

“Don’t make her wait for you just because you know she will.”

—

"Wisst ihr was am meisten wehtut? Dass er jetzt so weiter lebt, als wenn nichts gewesen wäre. Als wenn nie was zwischen uns passiert ist. Er ist zu ihr zurück gegangen und tut so, als wenn alles in Ordnung wäre. Aber ich bin die jenige die ihn jeden Tag vermisst und sich wünscht, dass ich die jenige bin, die in seinem Armen liegen darf. Und nicht sie.

if you hear people from my past speak of me. keep in mind they are speaking of a person they don’t even know anymore. 

“I AM WORTH MORE THAN A SECOND CHOICE. I AM BETTER THAN HOW YOU ONLY LOVE ME WHEN YOU’RE DRUNK.”

— maybe if i tell myself this enough i’ll actually believe it// 4am