“Let Me Die in Peace”
It's okay if you failed. It's okay if you didn't live up to your expectations. Your worth hasn't diminished, and it never has.
Only you know your story, only you can close your eyes and see it all play inside your head, the details, the laughter, the pain. You carry more than you know, you’re more than you show. I hope you’re kind enough to yourself to give it what it deserves, to allow the doors that are trying to open. I hope you’re kind enough to yourself to give it another chance, to finally be more than what you were.
"كُنْ فَيَكُونُ"
It's hard to plan something and have it not turn out the way you wanted. how hard and disappointing it feels when you pray and don't see any change. Keep praying, even if it seems impossible; God will make a way for whatever you want.
"وَقَالَ رَبُّكُمُ ٱدْعُوِىٓ أَسْتَجِبْ لَكُمْ"
There’s beauty in the unknown especially when you know that God has prepared a plan for you. Keep going and keep trusting god, one day you will look back and be grateful for everything and will know why God made you wait. "قُلْ عَسَى أَن يَكُونَ قَرِيبًا"
"جاور من يسعدك"
But as for humans, leave them as they are; don’t push or force anything, like relationships, attention, appreciation, or conversations; anything forced isn’t worth fighting for! It is what it is, and you need to accept situations for what they are. Every action doesn’t need a reaction.
“Spot dangerous people before even interacting with them”
لن تتوقف معاناتك إلا عندما تحاط بالأشخاص المناسبين "ارتباطك بالشخص الصح، وشغلك في المكان الصح، وتصاحب الناس الصح" may you attract good people with good intentions who help you become your best version. who celebrate your growth like their own, who protect your name in your absence and make you feel safe with their presence. you deserve to be surrounded with this kind of energy. وقتها بس ثقتك بنفسك هترجعلك، وقتها بس مش هيفرق معاك كلام الناس لان الناس طول الوقت بتحكم عليك من خلال عُقدها، وخلافاتها، ومشاكلها، ومزاجها الشخصي، وغيرتها، وحقدها، لحد ما هتلاقي نفسك فجأة بقيت واقف في منطقة رمادية، مُحرج تتكلّم وتقول إنك أكبر من كده، وفي نفس الوقت مش قادر ترضى بالمكان اللي حطّوك فيه، فتبدأ مرحلة عبثية جديدة من حياتك، مليئة بالصراع والنكوص ومراجعة الذات والإحساس بلا جدوى الحياة والرغبة في تحطيم كل شيء، والعودة لنقطة الصفر من جديد! All it takes for the bad in the world to win is enough good people doing nothing.
If you’re not an idiot, you will do these things”
I thought about how much people usually hate others or judge them as bad, but they don't take into consideration their badness on a scale of how many good things they have done to the world versus their bad things. I can’t overemphasise how important it is to know who you are as an individual because people will always try to project their insecurities and preconceived notions on you without provocation.
After all, I think it's not necessary to be a "good person". That doesn't mean you have to be a bad person. You can be a neutral person. You don't have to go out of your way to make people happy or do good deeds to have a good reputation. I think as long as you're not actively hurting people, then you're fine. You don't have to be a good person.