So this is my life now: get up in the morning early. Weekdays I go to work, the hospital, and then home to bed to do it all over again. Weekends and holidays are all day at the hospital. My mom and brother came up to visit me for Christmas even though my mom was sick. On Christmas day she was so bad I called an ambulance to their hotel. She was admitted to the hospital and has been there ever since. She has advanced cancer. She's not getting better. At first we thought we could at least stabilize her enough to get back to home for hospice care but it is a million and one chance she'll leave this hospital alive. Lucky for me, I live a block from the hospital. My brother is alternating between Oregon and here. Her good friend is up visiting now. It's hard, y'all. This is not my first ride at this particular rodeo but it's not like it gets any easier. I have a lot of complicated emotions. Everything is day to day right now. Anyway, that's why I'm not around
Pandas, other bears, and whatever else crosses my mind. I'm easily amused.. I'm Zee. I'm 40ish and live in the Pacific NW. My interests include pandas, pop culture, animals in general, food, travel, swimming pools, books, attempting to understand "why" and also sometimes "how". I like to visit the past sometimes but I sure wouldn't want to live there.